Changes

"Seeing people change isn't what hurts. What hurts is remembering who they used to be."

I saw this quote and it immediately made me think of a few people in my life that have contributed to some of the most brilliant and exquisite memories of my life but have also literally made my heart sink without even casting a stone.  Looking back on college and how I lived my life I saw that I was not an individual, on my own doing my own thing, I was sucked into the vortex of "social acceptance" and was herded like a sheep changing my views and my ideas about who I really was.  I was a follower and not a leader.  Knowing this now, I am taking a stand and becoming a person who has the motivation, the integrity, the determination, and the willingness to be different; to take a step off of the path that has been created into a trail and I am voyaging off a step at a time in a different direction and creating my own path.

Why should I do this?  I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for being that follower I was; would I? No, I wouldn't be.  But if someone else can torment and then satisfy my friendship in the blink of an eye then Lord knows I am guilty of doing the same.  It isn't a fair fight to the person on the negative receiving end; even if it's a two way street of passion and then deceitfulness.

Be who you want to be AT YOUR CORE.  Find who you are, it won't happen in a day, it won't happen in a year.  It has taken me 4 long battering years to find who I am today.  Although those 4 years were the best of my life, there are certainly aspect that could and should be improved upon.  Friendship and loyalty ranks upon the highest.  Love a friend.  Be a good friend.  But most importantly, Love yourself for having friends.